I cried last night when I realized that I would not have a nose piercing anymore. I begged the Goddess forgiveness. I raged that my hubby was right. (I hate that!).
I couldn’t get it back in after surgery. It went almost all the way but the layer on the inside had healed. I didn’t go to Piercing Experience because I just couldn’t handle the pain. Today, it would hurt even more because it has pretty much healed all the way. It really hurt when I got it pierced. It made me cry. Then one night I ripped it out in my sleep and my nose swelled up and Padrick put it back in. That REALLY hurt. He was so great-I felt in love with him after how gentle he was with me. But now, I just can’t. Even though I just bought a new one. I just feel like my nose rejected it.
I like looking different. I also like looking the same. Basically, I like not being in pain. So I want to put a sign on my forehead that says, “I didn’t get rid of the piercing to look like everyone else or because hubby didn’t like it!” But, proving oneself with a piece of jewelry is an impossible task I guess. I don’t know.
Goddess does not want me to suffer. She wants me to be happy and does not need me to suffer for her. I’ve done enough of that. So has Jesus. I am already forgiven. I am already loved. I do not need to prove anything. I am dedicated to the Goddess in every woman and everywhere.