I sometimes (frequently) feel like I am not a “real” pagan. Not a Wiccan. I don’t celebrate the Sabbats, I haven’t done ritual in forever. I haven’t danced naked in ages. I don’t even hardly look at my altar.
When I am scared, or sad or just want to talk, I always pray to Goddess. She is always there for me and I really believe that. I am not a Christian. I will never be a Christian. Sometimes I want to shout it from the rafters-I AM A GODDESS LOVER-DON’T MISTAKE ME FOR ONE OF YOU!!! But there are so many things wrong with this, like for example, I don’t actually know what rafters are or where to find any.
I am an imperfect, tired, lazy, human being who believes that a woman created us and a man helped. That spirit has no gender but beings with gender must have gender in their relationship with spirit.
I believe that no western religion gives women their proper place. They are always second. Not even equal.
Goddess please help me to be a vessel for you on this earth, for your love and infinite compassion. Please give me faith. Please help me to encourage women to love themselves, both literally and figuratively. For if all the women in the world were happy-the world would be a much better place. Just ask my husband if anyone in the house can be happy when I am not. “When mommy’s happy-everyone is happy.”